A Broken Tooth Does Wonders for Dieting and Eating Disorders
Friday, while chewing on some ice (stupid, I know), one of my back teeth broke. Actually, the filling itself cracked and took the tooth along with it. So, for the entire weekend, until I can get in to see a dentist, I can eat little more than yogurt, Red Bulls, and mashed potatoes.
In reality, I can eat more than that including some semi-solid foods (I’ve been filling out my impromptu diet with sliced bread), but I’m too worried about damaging my tooth further.
Last night, while laying in bed waiting to drift off to dreamland, I frightened myself. Something most people don’t know about me is that I had an eating disorder when I was younger — nope, not anorexia or bulimia — I was a binge eater.
I’d literally not eat anything all day or whenever people were around and then I’d sneak out to the fridge and gorge myself late at night. It made me feel so guilty and worthless, but without getting into the gory details of how it came to be that way, it was the only thing I knew to do. It took me about seven years before I was finally able to eat in front of people.
So, while I was laying in bed, barely able to eat anything a thought crossed my mind: In those two days I’ve been unable to eat much, I’ve lost 4 pounds. What if I just stopped eating? Imagine how much weight I could lose.
The thought scared me because I know that it’s something I am capable of doing (not eating in order to lose weight) and the last thing I need in my life right now is to battle anorexia. That’s just not acceptable to me. So, for the last day and a half, I’ve been forcing myself to eat more nutritional foods even if I can’t eat solid food.
Today, for instance, I snarfed down a bowl of chicken and broccoli soup, a Slim Fast meal replacement shake, some cherries and grapes, yogurt, and a few other liquid yet highly nutritious offerings.
By the way, and this is just a side note, Slim Fast Strawberries and Cream meal replacement shakes taste like ass. Seriously. I don’t know what possessed me to get them instead of chocolate. Today, thank goodness I remembered, I picked up some chocolate flavored Ensures and I’m praying they’re much better (though they have more fat and calories). I’ll let ya’ll know how that goes for me.
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Welcome to the wonderful world of Michele’s Meet & Greet…it is a lovely place to meet people and I think you will have a very good time!
I hope you find a good balance in your diet—after you get that tooth fixed…But it sounds like you are doing very well, Slim.
Always have love the name Slim, ever since that GREAT 40’s film with Humphrey Bogart and Lauren Bacall…She was called “Slim” in the film, taken from the Director/Writer’s wifes nickname, at the time…Slim Hawks…who later became Slim something else….
It’s a GOOD name! And I wish you much GOOD LUCK!
I broke a filling the other week. Luckily I did it at lunchtime on a workday and my excellent dentist fitted me in the same day.
http://craziequeen.blogspot.com/2007/06/pain-much-pain.html
I so sympathise, Slim, but remember a broken tooth does not mean you can break the sensible eating principle
I also have suffered eating disorders and still have hang-ups ten years later……
I came via Michele’s to welcome you to the world of blogging and the magic that is the Meet and Greet!!
cq
Thank you OOLotH and CQ. So far, I’m having a lot of fun and have found a lot of great blogs.
CQ, I just read your entry about the dentist and it sounds like you and I have a lot in common (can’t stand the dentist…thankfully, we can have gas here).
Keeping a proper eating plan is definitely on my list of priorities right now (as I sip on my Ensure which is — woohoo — rather good).
- Slim
ooh gas……….I miss gas SO much………Mr Aslett just used to plug me into the supply and work to his heart’s content…..then they banned it here.
You’re welcome at the Palace anytime - we’re a friendly bunch here in the blogosphere…
Michele sent me to see you and say ‘goodnight’ ‘cos it’s late here in the UK…….
cq
Thanks for the warm invite, CQ. Something tells me I’ll be stopping by the Palace often.
Whenever you get a chance, possibly you could answer me one question, how come they banned gas in the UK? Now I’m a little worried. LOL
G’night!
Hi Slim. I was a binge eater in the past too but not as bad as you. I am glad to hear that you have the intelligence to notice the warning signs when a bad idea comes along masquerading as a good one!
I hope your tooth gets sorted out real soon and you’re able to get back to proper food. Those shakes sound awful! There is never any replacement in my book for chocolate except chocolate!! LOL!
Welcome to the Meet n greet. I am sure you’ll have fun and you’re welcome to drop by my blog anytime!
Thanks Bob-kat,
It took me a long time and a lot of people supporting me before I was able to recognize those bad ideas masquerading as good ones by myself. LOL
Oddly, it’s good to know that I’m not alone. That was one of the main things I was afraid of when I started this blog (that people would think I was a freak b/c of my problems).
Definitely glad I found the Meet n Greet because I’m finding some great and interesting people along the way.
michele sent me to say hi
wishing you well
It’s so hard to have any kind of clear picture of someone you’re visiting for the first time, but there’s no mention in this post about exercise. I hope you’re doing some!
But having said the correct thing, I have to admit that if I miss eating for a while because of a flu or being stressed or whatever, I end up noticing that you do stop getting hungry, and start guiltily considering just not eating at all til I drop the extra weight. But thank goodness I live with other people, who end up making delicious cooking smells that get me away from that idea.
Here from Michele’s!
Hey Dew,
Thanks for popping in and commenting.
Regarding excercise, yes, I dance (some of my previous posts elude to this). However, I’ll admit that I’m a lazy exerciser. I need someone kicking my butt in gear to get me to do it. LOL
Hi there, Slim. I found your link on Michele’s and thought I’d follow it home.
I really admire your courage in sharing your experience via your blog. It’s immensely difficult to embark on a weight reduction regime under any circumstances. But to write about it in such an honest and straightforward way makes it so much harder - and more meaningful.
I can’t wait to read more, and am glad I e-met you this weekend.
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