Bringing Out the Big Guns
Since I’ve been home from Jamaica, 5 pounds lighter than when I left, I’m almost certain I’ve managed to put the weight back on (if not more). Frankly, I don’t understand how it’s possible. I’ve been faithful in my exercise, except on vacation, but walking around the town and helping to bear the weight of my highly adorable, yet incredibly heavy niece, more than made up for it.
When I ponder my weight dilemma, I’m almost certain it’s an emotional problem that I’m unwilling or unable to face. Each time I consciously work to better myself emotionally and physically, somehow I manage to get in my own way. It’s as if the stress and worries in my life are taking over and controlling my metabolism.
Instead of sitting back and accepting it, I’m choosing to make an active change. If that means I need to try some alternative methods of working through my emotions and finding my slim self again, the so be it.
Translated, that means I plan to work through my emotional build up using some EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique). Plus, I’ll combine the EFT with the Ultimate Weight Loss CD set by Kelly Howell. I’ve used some of her other CDs previously with awesome results, so I’m hoping this will be well worth it.
Funny enough, it’s as though God knows I need this as soon as possible because all of the orders I placed at Amazon yesterday weren’t available to ship right away except this one. It was scheduled to arrive Friday (I have a Prime account and selected 2 day), but the most amazing thing happened — I laid down for a nap, listening to one of her great CDs, and when I woke up, there was a UPS man knocking at my door with my order.
Each morning that I wake up, I will tap and listen to one of the CDs which is an hour long. Each night before I go to bed, I will tap and listen to the other CD, also an hour long. I was planning to begin on Saturday, but I’ll begin Friday to document my weight, my measurements, and how I feel each day. I will continue to do so until I reach my goal of a ladie’s dress size 9 which is what I was in high school and starting college.
Yesterday I felt discouraged and frightened. Not sure what I was frightened of, but I was aware of the feeling. But despite the frustration and fear, I was also feeling hope. And today I feel amazing. It’s been a wonderful day and although some small inklings of fear remain, I feel at peace.
I know that I was once slim and healthy, so it’s possible. And I know that one day soon (I hope before November 13), I’ll be slim again.
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